Jerald’s Weblog

This is a post that is written at 2.55am after she had went offline and me doing some reflection on what i’ve done.

I feel apologetic Both To Silly Poke and Sarah. It was me getting carried away when i saw the way u guys talked. Totally scare the living daylights outta me, thus it made me feel that i’m a cause to making ur frenship sour. And i continued on with my stand, not bothering to clarify anything with you two and even refused to call nor pickup any phone calls. I admit i was rash at that point of time . But i bear no intention of hurting you two. Thus, I came into realization that it was me, the DUMB one who did not analyse the situation carefully and jumping into my own conclusions. but hey, i really wan you two to be happy and alrights.

To this very Dear silly poke of mine, its been a nightmare for you from the words that came out of me. Its the first time i hurt you, the first time these happypills did not come into effect. This is the night that i’ll remember . Words of giving up and letting go made you heartbroken , i did not bring your feelings into consideration. It was all my bad. I ‘m sorry for what had happened earlier. For you, I hope tomorrow will be a better day. I was glad i managed to clear the mess at the last minute before i really lose you. Nevertheless, I’ve learnt my lesson today, that is to think twice before saying out something, knowing it’ll hurt her. After this night, i’m not gonna give you up, let you go, you’re being held close, to my heart. Still, I’m Anticipating for a Friday Western Dinner together with you where we can talk our hearts out.

On lighter notes, i hope both of you can remain as the bestest frens and happiness is a must ! (:

What’s with Mum nowadays, Shes still totally obsessed with fengsui. Ordering me to sit which particular seat on the table to do my work. ): Mums are always naggy. No doubt. But after all, Here comes the phrase, Its for my own good. But , the labby wire is too short. Guess it’ll be a hard time for me to movee again and the sight of those long and tangled wires erks me. Like totally. I hate being messy !

This week is E learning week. HEllO (: nothing much happened except rotting at home and going for a short gym session 2 days ago. Wasnt very productive although there were little people. It was emptiness and dimness in the gym. Just a small number of team-mates and seniors. The rest went for the upcoming Dragonboat Regatta. All the best to the Girls and SP Canoeists rowing the Dragonboat this saturday. Which means in other words, looks like water training will be cancelled once again. I miss My Kboat. The feeling that cant be described. AH ):

Phone Call with Silly Poke Yesterday was a blast. It was all about spending quality time with her. Everything was just about her Bcomm speech, Calming her down and sharing about my things to her (: this happy pill cum Motivator of mine just cant help teasing and laughing at me. HOW MEAN ):Tomorrow will be going for Study Sessions with Classmates to complete my e learning assignments and lastly a dinner at East Coast with Team-mates (:

Not forgetting friday , A  BIG day of anticipation =D

Nevertheless, pardon me for saying, I MISS SILLY POKE once again.

My Canoeing Passion Burns Strong. My Commitment to it and to her (:

If you never know, You had me from Hello (: Its all about who you are that matters most to me

I realised i havent been blogging for quite a while. Or rather say, it was purposeful instead ! HAHA ! Spells down to laziness , in addition theres nthg much to blog anyway. I’ve been going through the same old routine for this week. Eat Study Train and Play. Nothing interesting did happened =/ Boring life . Today Was at least so much better. Met Up with ZhenYuan for school. He was late. Late already ! and he still have the cheek to walk slowly. ._. Train was squeezy , once again I Was being Sardined again. Slept during PEEE Tutorial =P Totally nothing to ask. Managed to Direct 10% of my attention to my lecturer. Then My Head Just Went down Gradually and Gradually down on the table. Eyelids weighed heavily, wouldnt matter if i can jus rest them just for a while . =P until the end of the lesson . HA ! went for breakfast then DE Lecture. A fun Filled Lesson for sleeping. The Lecturer is still as boring as ever. I wouldnt mind skipping his lecture when i dont learn anything from him. Guess wad, Even the hardworking students dont comprehend a single thing he says. And we all did our own work. (: Learnt a lil about BCD code. adding 6 if the number exeeds 13 or smthg like that. Mundane Numbers. Went home after school. took a nap . Went over to Kaizhi’s house to do some lil sorting out of my work, and got some pics we took last friday. My eyes look extremely tired on those pics. totally suck. Hideous looking. ): And i noticed the enlargement of the panda eyes and the colour getting darker and darker. My skin is almost non visible in the dark light. Bangala-to-be. Oh well. Jason bro came to meet us after that. Walked to Lot 1 shoppers mall to have our dinner at Pizza Hut. On the way, we shared alot of our experiences and gave each other advice on alot of personal problems. Waited for 45 mins for our seats ._. 3 of us sat down enjoyed our Huts Delight that can be eaten by 4-5 person. Yet , it wasnt enough. I ordered another sausage Mania Pasta. After that, then we were filled. (: Hearty Meal indeed. No camwhoring for today. Elearning next week. No diff at all. Still have to wake up early , theres still quizzes and assignments. I wan sometime for myself to do the things i wan and wish to do. (:

-AH and yes . A short post to Thank that Particular SPECIAL and UNIQUE one for being my Role model, My motivation. HAHA ! Things changed for the better on the thought of having to attend lessons early in the morning like you and the Sudden urge and rush of adrealine to Not give up when i am dead beat. I hope this can continue !! To do my best and Attend Classes Regularly. Its for my own good anyway. No more Warning Letters, No more Disappointment. Xie le !

Talking about Friday’s Canoe Polo friendly with NTU . IT WAS A BLAST ! We had a  Draw for team 1 which includes Me , Evan, Michael, Jacob, Yuan Feng , Adam , Nat and Gabriel. Yuanfeng’s the scorer. Okay , It was my bad when i couldnt chase for the first ball for 2 times. too slow already. Sigh and after looking at the video i can see myself stoning most of the times looking at the ball without doing anything. I was supposed to drive in !! Argh. We spoke of all the plans before the match start and yet, it is indeed that Saying is easy, doing it is so difficult. In a match, i completely got messed up and i did not know wad to do. Sorry Guys. I wish i had better use for the team. I wished i could be a better chaser, A faster one ! Game tatics is so important yet i havent mastered it. Furthermore i darent say i put in 100% during the game. Sigh. Everything still have to be trained up . So I’ll just tell myself, Jerald, Be patient, Train hard, Learn from mistakes and dont repeat them anymore. Canoe Polo rules (: Anyway , We did a good job . Out of 4 matches , we lost the last one , 1-0 to NTU , as they had a mixed team of seniors and juniors. but still it wasnt any excuse. SP Junior team , CHIONG AH ! (:  Nevertheless Congrats to Team 2 for having a 3-0 win over their team. After the friendly and the experiences gained, i am determined to train hard and apply (: with practice makes perfect. No Pain no Gain !

My goodness. I am sun burnt again. this time real bad. I did not bring my sunblock lotion for training yesterday. and so, resulted in this bad sunburn. Aunt’s telling me that i am getting darker and darker. Its getting Uglier lah. Darn And the worse part is getting skin cancer due to the excessive amount of skin absorbing the UV rays. Its really scary lah. I cant sleep well with the back feeling a sudden pain whenever i come in comtact with smthg. A simple rub on the back will kill ! Rowed from 9am till about 5pm before proceeding to Grandma’s house for steamboat .Had blocked nose and i did not really managed to enjoy such delicious dishes of hers. All because of that and this terrible skin condition therefore i did not go to school for today . But still i turned up for AUTO CADD. Everyone seemed surprised to see me, and Me surprised to see so lil ppl turning up for class today. Donn, Gab, Yixiang all went home. HAHA. Last Friday was worse, out of 22 ppl, only 9 turned up. And the 13 ppl who MIA-ed includes me in one of them . All spells down to laziness once again. Oh well. Its been 3 weeks since i havent been turning up for friday. Its more like a self – made holiday for myself. This must Stop ! or i will not get my 75% attendance. Anyway, did exercise 3 and 4 for Auto Cad today. Auto Cadd is fun, at least better than Programming which is a total Bore. Friday’s gonna be a shopping spree plus Sarah’s Birthday. Cant wait ! Well, thats all for today. Tatas ! (:

Today is a very memorable day. not because of the lessons of cause, HAHA ! dont ask me why.  It was the gym training we had. as usual , we did our warm up run, pullups and headed to the gym. did weights with Zhiwei, Jiajie , Joanne and Gary. Pushed alot on Preacher Curl. 15kg max for today Accomplishment. But hey , thats the not memorable part yet. It was the pushups that came after that. Had punishment as one of us broke the shotover paddle in the clubhouse. Did 300 PUSHUPS ! and everyone counted. Maintained the Counting. Everyone were not quitters but we were winners in the end. Completeing the 300 pushups as a team, in between giving each other encouragment and spurring each other on. For The team, For the Benefit of ourselves, we train as a team. YES . We did all 300 together. I lost my voice somehow when i counted from 1 to 300. Everyone became high counting , and its like almost the whole food court 5 foyer could hear our counting. A very tired but Accomplished day. although my triceps are hurting alot now, i am sure we all gave our utmost. Keep it going ! AH and yes, friday will be we junior guys our friendly Canoe Polo Match with NTU . We ‘re not going for win or lose. but getting the experience in a game , nevetheless doing our best ! Make all the trainings we had from April till now worthwhile ! Not forgetting to take pictures as its our first Friendly Canoe Polo Match. All the best ! (:

Alrights. 2nd week for sem 2 just ended like that. 10 more weeks to go before the sem ends and the MST and FYE are drawing near, in other words means more Mugging. seriously i still cant bring my ass outta bed to school lol. Mum’s asking why am i always sleeping into the late morning like theres no school and i’ll just say i am tired. lol. i am getting myself late for school for 3 consecutive days for this week. Tues i was late 40 mins, Wed i was like 1 hr late and subsequently Thurs late for 2 hrs and lastly Friday, did not even turn up for school at all. My Goodness, I duno wads happening. i am getting soo tired after the trainings. but who cares, I love canoe. I love my teammates. They are my life. thats the bottom line. (:

Planning to get new slippers as my havainas ’s sole had completely worn out , maybe some shirts again. HAHA.. oh yes i neeed berms too. but here comes the problem , where does the $$ come from. hard qn to answer as i always have such a big appetite. even all my team mates say that seeing the way i eat after every training. like today, just gobbled up a double Teriyaki Beef Burger from Carl’s Junior that costed me about 14 bucks. tgt with many servings of ice lemon tea. since its free refills, who cares. i am all out for it . HAHA. Yay , for today’s training. quite an effective one. but first time using Flight paddle for K2. not that good yet. still capped alot of times, and Willy became emo cos he cant balance. oh well. i rather we stick we Conventionals first to at least train our balance better. But other than that, Ive at least managed to rotate abit for K1. I feel quite accomplished , ended the training with 200 pushups. Theres still many many room for improvement to be made, not forgetting to train hard for the November IVP and The Ubin race. I hope i’ll be in Singapore during the Ubin Race because I’ll be going off on a 2week plus trip to USA with my family to visit my Relatives there. A family trip ! I cant wait ! Yes Yes , Week 11 ! Dec 8. Flying To Los Angeles via Seoul then to Las Vegas, then San Francisco . Unexplainable fun coming up ! We spent a bomb , like $30,000 for the whole family. My goodness. Dad says its okay as its a family trip . and just like wad my uncle said, grandparents are old, they should make use of this chance when they are still able to Travel to go around the world. Money still can be earned back . Its the Happiness that Money cant buy thats important. Family Happiness i mean

I’ll be leaving one week before my 2 week holiday break starts, bringing about some headache in how to get My Leave of Absence  for the  missed lessons for the week. I’ll Miss SPCT la. The trainings and My Boats. I am attached to my boats okay (: if u wanna ask me wad about books? i’ll give some thought to it first. HAHA ! alrights. dec is gonna be a happening month with competitions, family holiday and we year ones branching out the either the Sprint side or Polo side . for me, i will be going sprint with gabriel, shane, Willy and other people who prefer sprint than polo. till then, we’ll train hard and make the sprint team proud !